6/22/2026

it’s nights like these where i feel ruined. it feels like the sun will never rise again and my heart hurts so bad all i can do is curl into a ball and cry. it’s nights like these where everyone feels so far away and i feel like no one will ever love me the way he could and i debate giving up all my hard work because it hurts to keep going. the world feels like its crumbling around me and rushing past me and i have nothing left to grasp on to. it’s weird because two nights ago i was the happiest i’ve been in years. it’s funny how fast those feelings fade.

tonight the world feels like it’s going to end, but tomorrow i will get back and up and be two months and one day clean. tomorrow i will go to theater and be surrounded by the people that love me, and none of those boys who broke my heart will be in my proximity. tomorrow i will wipe my tears and get up on that stage and dance and sing until i can’t breathe. tomorrow i will hug all my friends and family a little bit tighter and maybe tomorrow night will also feel just like this, but tomorrow the sun will rise again. it always does.